i have never reach this stage of what i m in my life right now before..
i m so confused,distress..

i'm like floating ard in the middle of the sea looking for something to cling on to.
i really hate myself for all of these.
i got so so so much feelings and pain inside me that i cant even express everything out properly..
i totally lost control of my emotions and i'm literally turning crazy..

i hate everything that goes around my life right now..
i'm so so lost that i cant see what's going to happen nxt..
no more control of my emotions and i let loose of everything last night and the night before..

all this distress and hurt cause me to be light headed.
at times,i just wonder when will i really fall apart
and who will be there to piece me up.
no one understand what all these weird feelings..
i really hate all of these!!

i'm getting all fustrated again.
i feel so damn fused up and everything that i can feel right now are all BAD BAD BAD!
the pain hurt so much that i can just die from it.

its really so hard to bring across a message to someone who totally do not understand what you are going through.
they claim that they understand but its all crap.
it just hurt so much.
telling someone everything that i ever feel and only to be rejected and to be only considered just suxs.
the feeling really sucks.
i dun understand why is it so hard to understand and stand with me
i hate the feeling of forcing you to do something and you only do it cause i tell u to do so.
i dun understand why all the differences only come now and not in the past.
i dun understand why u cant understand me at all
but u always claim that you do.
i really hope too that i can understand you.

IS EVERYTHING SO HARD???????????????????????????????????????????




i really wana end all tis pain that i'm having..