Monday, June 22, 2009 @ 6/22/2009 11:04:00 AM
the news of his death was sudden but i didnt felt anything at first.
i just felt shock and that's all.
that's because i dun really understand the word death. what does it really meant.
it just meant someone unable to move and talk, cant bet on seeing him anymore, knowing that if i pass by sunset way, that he will not be staying there.
i just keep wondering how i actually feel or what i should be feeling.
confused.
went to his place with shir after work yest.
its really a kinda weird feeling. i didnt know what to expected.
after all, i did not see him for about 4 years.still, after hearing his mum telling us about the accident, emotions just build up.i didnt have to think to be feeling that kind of sick and weird sadness in me.its has always been hard to handle death after all.we were friends during secondary school and we were quite close at a period when i was with dex.after all, birds of the same feather flock together. =)he and dex hid under my study table/bed(i cant remb) to avoid my dad who came home one afternoon suddenly! haha.and now he's really gone. but like what all his friends said, he was really in pain so it might be really better if he leave us.saw him for the last time and i lost control of my emotions.i start blawing out and i totally do not understand why. his dad was saying " thank you for the love u gave ken" and i totally couldnt control it anymore.like a few seconds i just look at the dad and tears just start to come out.and i dun understand why i felt so hard about it.the family was strong like the mum said. and i believe ken would be in better hands now.he choose to believe in God and we all believe that he is void of pain now and is by God's side.*take care ken.
we are always friends afterall.
